hmmm

While I'm sitting here, trying to decide what to write, it hits me...It's somewhat pretentious for me to think that anyone will find the everyday happenings of my life interesting. I'm a 22 year old University student with hardly a life to mention. I'm an English major who enjoys tearing apart books, movies, songs...really anything I can look into and attempt to find a deeper meaning. Who does that make me really? Well...I think it makes me someone really annoying, who tries to assert her intelligence by desperately finding what other people may or may not see. And really...What else is there about me?

Well...I know I'm nice, and a great friend...But I guess anyone can really say that. Even if someone was a bitch, I bet deep down they think they're nice to other people, and everyone has to be a great friend to someone. It's a humbling experience to think that perhaps, I'm not any different from anyone else. I have convictions, moral beliefs, and values....But so does everyone else...Everyone has to believe in something. What makes me think that anyone would be interested in my personal values?

In a way, this is like life pornography. We all sit at home, work or school staring at the computer screen looking into someone's life. It somehow creates a fantasy...We only get to see certain aspects of their life, and undoubtedly we will probably find something about the person we like or would like to see in ourselves. You don't get to see any of my really annoying habits; you don't see my obsession with folding my sheets and towels a certain way...Or how the kitchen sink fills me with dread because all I can imagine is all the bacteria that MUST be there....Or my addiction to cheesy reality TV shows (which we all must have...Even this is a Reality Show...We like being voyeurs into other people's lives....It tells us that we're not as bad as we thought!). You only get to see what I put forth about me....and trust me...You're missing all the good
stuff!! ;)

~Mella

oh yeah...by the way...I can upload pictures!! my Hello thing doesn't work!!! Help?