And here come the quotes...

So if you know me at all....you know I am OBSESSED with quotes! I love them. They can bring anything; understanding, faith, inspiration, tears or smiles. So...can anyone tell me who wrote this quote? I know it was a dedication at the beginning of a book, but I have no clue who wrote it! :( I think this quote is BRILLIANT! Something about it hit me and I loooooove it...probably because if you know me well enough to recognise my quote fetish, you probably know me enough to know how I feel about endagered animals....a.k.a We are RUINING our world!!!!!!!!! For God's Sake!!! No one needs a baby monkey and no one needs to have anything made out of ivory!! and its not even people wanting animals and animal parts...Stop cutting down forests to make teak furniture!!! You are ruining the small bit of Orangutan habitat that is left on the Earth!!! GOD! ahem...you've all heard my rant before....

OK! the Quote....

"I sometimes imagine the sound of a shot ringing out, and turn in time to see the last elephant, black rhino, or mountain gorilla slowly sink to its knees in the Red African Dust.

In time that will come to pass and on that day an unbearable loniless will descend over humankind.

To all creatures, still wild and free, I dedicate this book. The success of human evolution has not been kind to you."

Me

So, I wrote this poem when I was line in grade 11, but surprisingly, it still makes me feel better and happy about who I am. I really think it was one of those points in your life that you can actually see things clearly and accept things about yourself.

Me

I have big dreams

but underneath them I have straight teeth.

One of my eyes is a tad smaller than the other. My

fingers are fat and kinda knobby.

I will never be as small as my sister.

My hair is too straight.

All my dreams will probably not come true

but my teeth will always be straight.

My eyes will not change and

my fingers

will always stay the same.

I don't wanna be as thin as my sister.

And my hair is nice

I am Me.

What's interesting is those things that I didn't like about myself then is very different now: I don't think my hair is straight enough and I iron it everyday...my fingers aren't so fat and knobby now, I haven't thought about my eyes in SOOOO long....actually forgot that one was a little smaller and I have great curves...I really don't want to be as thin as my sister.

I guess this really shows how much you will look for to be selfconscious about in high school...I remember now wanting to smile cause it really showed my weird eyes!!! How stupid is that?!? I can't even notice it now and NO ONE ever has ever said..."is one of your eyes a quarter of a millimeter smaller than the other?" :)

Starr

Starr
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Isn't he the cutest cat you've ever seen?! Oh Gosh...i miss him so much!!

I am Crap at this Blogging thing!!

There is nothing in this world that will make you feel as crappy as looking through other people's blogs! I was just randomly searching and, my God...some people who have blogs are amazing!! They have cool pictures and cool backgrounds and here I am...stuck with the all templates and picture-less because I'm too stupid to figure out how! :) I generally see myself as a very computer savvy individual, but now I can see that I'm good with computers COMPARED to my family. Compared to the rest of the general population, I'm part of the "lower-middle-class computer-ites"...the people I used to scoff about quietly to myself. Oh...how the mighty have fallen! :)

Also, its so strange to see the people who blog on a regual basis!! Take my friend Jen for example. She is really the only one who actually reads this blog on a regualr basis, and she used to be so keen about the blogging. But now...nothing! Before it was a fun "ohhh...gotta read what's up with her, tell her about me" thing, but now that she's out of it, I'm out of it too!! Jen!! Please!! Come back to blogging!!! I miss your witty commentaries on life, you're constant E.R. obsession...I need more that interesting MSN names to keep me up to date!!

So I had a pretty good weekend, although I do have one minor complaint...well...I guess it has a lot to do with the fact that my friends here in Van-city, do not really know me that well at all. They do, but they don't...they know what I tell them and what they see. Things that Van-city people think are things that realisitically, Nova Scotia people would NEVER thing. Ok, so what brought this on is: I was out at my favourite bar this weekend and I was having a GREAT time!! I was dancing like a fool (Jigs...if you will), having a few drinks, laughing and just having the best night I've had in a loooooong time!! I was tipsy/drunk but by no means, sloppy-falling down-I can't control myself drunk, but for some reason I was being treated as though I was. And I know, how I just described this, it actually sounds like I was falling down drunk, but I honestly wasn't. I was having so much fun, but I was in complete control of myself and my actions. I was honestly just dancing and joking around...I wasn't even flirting or having fun with any guys! Yet...I was being treated like a complete and total lush, who needed a babysitter!! My Nova Scotia friends would NEVER do this! They know the difference from when I'm drinking and having fun and when I'm drinking and really need to go home (Josh especially!!)! I assume its because I'm so much shorter than my friends here, which gives the impression of youth and irresponsibility, but Gosh darn it!!! I'm 22 years old!! Older than everyone else I was out with (save Charlene), and I was being treated like it was my first time drinking!! I just want an evening out with my NS crew, who know me and can read me and can understand that I am just an "all for fun" girl! There is a time for seriousness, and there is a time for fun...out at the Blarney Stone is DEFINATLY a time for fun!

Top 44 Ways to Freak-Out Your Roommate

Top 44 Ways to Freak-Out Your Roommate

1. Smoke ballpoint pens.

2. Smile -- All the time.

3. Always flush the toilet three times..

4. Listen to radio static.

5. Open your window shades before you go to sleep each night. Close them as soon as you wake up.

6. Whenever you go to sleep, starts jumping on your bed . . . do so for a while, then jump really high and act like you hit your head on the ceiling. Crumple onto your bed and fake like you were knocked out . . . use this method to fall asleep...every night for a month.

7. Whenever his/her parents call and ask for your roommate, breathe into the phone for 5 seconds then hang up. .

8.Fake a heart attack. When your roommate gets the paramedics to come, pretend nothing happened.

9. Whenever the phone rings, get up and answer the door

10.Whenever someone knocks, answer the phone.

11. Spend all your money on Transformers. Play with them at night. If your roommate says anything, tell him/her with a straight face, "They're more than meets the eye."

12. Get some hair. Disperse it around your roommate's head while he/she is asleep. Keep a pair of scissors by your bed. Snicker at your roommate every morning.

13. Trash your room when your roommates not around. Then leave and wait for your roommate to come back. When he/she does, walk in and act surprised. Say, "Uh-oh, it looks like THEY were here again."

14. Every time you see your roommate yell, "You son of a..." and kick him/her in the stomach. Then buy him/her some ice cream.

15. Set your roommate's bed on fire. Apologize and explain that you've been watching too much Beavis and Butthead. Do it again. Tell him/her that your not sorry because this time they deserved it.

16. Eat lots of Lucky Charms. Pick out all the yellow moons and stockpile them in the closet. If your roommate inquires, explain that visitors are coming, but you can't say anything more, or you'll have to face the consequences.

17. Draw a tiny, black spot on your arm. Make it bigger every day. Look at it and say, "It's spreading, it's spreading!"

18. Buy a McDonald's Happy Meal for lunch every day. Eat the straw and the napkin. Throw everything else away.

19. Buy a plant. Sleep with it at night. Talk to it. After a few weeks, start to argue with it loudly. Then yell, "I can't live in the same room with you," storm out of the room and slam the door. Get rid of the plant, but keep the pot. Refuse to discuss the plant ever again.

20. Buy a Jack-In-The-Box. Every day, turn the handle until the clown pops out. Scream continuously for twenty minutes.

21. If your roommate comes home after midnight, hit him/her on the head with a rolling pin. Immediately go to bed, muttering, "Ungrateful little..."

22. Pile dirty dishes in your roommate's bed. Insist that you don't know how they got there.

23. Collect hundreds of pens and pile them on one side of the room. Keep one pencil on the other side of the room. Laugh at the pencil.

24. While your roommate is out, glue your shoes to the ceiling. When your roommate walks in, sit on the floor, hold your head, and moan.

25. Collect potatoes. Paint faces on them and give them names. Name one after your roommate. Separate your roommate's potato from the others. Wait a few days, and then bake your roommate's potato and eat it. Explain to your roommate, "He just didn't belong."

26.Move everything to one side of the room. Ask your roommate if he/she knows how much an elephant weighs, and look at the floor on the empty side of the room with concern.

27. Practice needlepoint every night. At one point, grab your thumb and scream, "Owwwww!" Cry hysterically for a few minutes, and then go back to bed. Sob and sniff all night.

28. Every time your roommate comes in, immediately turn off the lights and go to bed. When he/she leaves, get up and loudly yell, "Okay guys, you can come out now!"

29. Sit in front of a chess board for hours, saying nothing, doing nothing. Then look up and say, "I think this game goes a lot faster with two players."

30. Talk back to your Rice Krispies. All of a sudden, act offended, throw the bowl on the floor and kick it. Refuse to clean it up, explaining, "No, I want to watch them suffer."

31. Change the locks on the door. Don't let your roommate in unless he/she says the secret word. Change the secret word often. If your roommate can't guess the secret word, make him/her pay a tithe.

32. Scatter stuffed animals around the room. Put party hats on them. Play loud music. When your roommate walks in, turn off the music, take off the party hats, put away the stuffed animals, and say, "Well, it was fun while it lasted."

33. When you walk into the room, look at the roommate in disgust and yell, "Oh you're here!" Walk away yelling and cursing.

34. Buy a watermelon. Draw a face on it and give it a name. Ask your roommate if the watermelon can sleep in his/her bed. If your roommate says no, drop the watermelon out the window. Make it look like a suicide. Say nasty things about your roommate at the funeral.

35. Draw a chalk outline on the floor. When your roommate comes in, say, "Don't worry. It's not what you think." If he/she asks about it again, immediately change the subject.

36. Drink a cup of coffee every morning. When you finish it, gnaw on the mug for about ten minutes. Then look at your roommate, immediately put the mug away, and quickly leave the room.

37. Set up about twenty plants in an organized formation. When your roommate walks in, pretend to be in the middle of delivering a speech to the plants. Whisper to them, "We'll continue this later," while eyeing your roommate suspiciously.

38. Keep some worms in a shoe box. When doing homework, go and consult with the worms every so often. Then become angry, shouting at the worms that they're stupid and they don't know what they are talking about.

39. Wear a paper hat. Every time your roommate walks in, say, "Welcome to McDonald's, can I take your...Oh, it's just you." Take off the hat, sit, and pout.

40. Go through your roommate's textbooks with a red pen, changing things and making random corrections. If your roommate protests, tell him/her that you just couldn't take it anymore.

41. As soon as your roommate turns off the light at night, begin singing famous operas as loud as you can. When your roommate turns on the light, look around and pretend to be confused.

42.Whenever your roommate sneezes, go and hide in the closet for about an hour. Look around nervously for the rest of the day.

43. Sit and stare at your roommate for hours. Bring others in to join you. Eat peanuts, throwing a few at your roommate. Then say, "Boy, these zoos just aren't what they used to be."

44. Buy a gun. Clean it every day. One day, put a band-aid on your forehead, and refuse to discuss the gun ever again.

Sometimes I feel as though I'm diagonally parked in a parallel world!

Sometimes I feel as though I'm diagonally parked in a parallel world!....and I'm not saying that is a bad thing. I'm just saying that you know, sometimes the things that I take as a given usually are not what I think.

One of my favourite movies is "Labyrinth". The movie's byline is "Where everything seems possible and nothing is what it seems", which is essentially my life right now. I have the entire world at my feet and it seems like I can do anything, but really is it what it seems? Can I actually do anything? Since highschool I have been told that you go to University and you graduate in 4 years and you have a degree and you get a job and you have a life. When I was in high school that was fine and so obvious to me, but now that I'm actually living that life it is scaring the shit out of me! I am not going to graduate in 4 years, I don't know what type of job I want, and I don't know what type of life I should have. So, basically by the standards set forth by high school, I am failing....miserably! So many of my friends are actually graduating in 4 years!!! Where did I go wrong?

I have two jobs that I hate, live farfar away from my family, and have been kinda down lately. I think its because its actually coming into my head that this is it. After trying so hard to find the right kind of life and be the right kind of person this is what I ended up with: I'm not doing so hot at the "University Plan" and I'm scared shitless to make anytype of real change in my life and I really miss my friends from home. You know, the friends that know you so well that if I was to do one of my trademark dumb moves, they would probably understand my motivation. The friends that have known me for so long that I don't really think of them as seperate people in my life, but more so of aspects of myself and of each other. Each so different, but SO essential to me being me. Friends that have always just been there, not demanding, not pushing, no need to act any different because they remember that time when...

So, yeah...that is my angry and bitter rant. Angry and bitter at the way things are shaping up in my life and at the fact that I'm feeling outside of my own happy E.C. life. Don't take this as the be all, end all or course, because as you know, if you know me AT ALL....this is how I feel right now. I guarantee that soon I will have a totally different opinion and feel very lucky to not be trapped by the so-called plan set forth by the evil high school dictators who brainwashed our every step to create anotehr generation of 'yes-men'. This is what I mean by being diagionally parked in a parallel world...its not necessarily a bad thing.....as a matter of fact...maybe its good that I'm taking my time alone and at school to really figure shit out............. ;)