S'now what?.....get it?!? Its a play on "Know What"...

yoyoyo!
It has been awhile since I've written on here...not too much is going on. I'm at home now, and I'm loving it. I've been drunk a lot...and ya know what...I'm enjoying it :D I've been having a fun low-key here...I kicked my sisters' asses at Monopoly tonight...I swear to God...I don't know why people even agree to play with me...I honestly don't lose! But hey...I don't mind the confidence boost of annahilating someone at a board game! :)
We're having a snow storm today...its veryveryvery snowy on the ol E.C. today...I woke up an my window was covered with snow...I was like "what the hell?!?! how long did I sleep?!?!"...it was actually quite humorous. :) hmmm...what else should I say? Relaly not much else is going on here...I always love being a home, but it seems as though my life becomes somewhat useless while I'm here. I'm trying to find a really good job for when I get back to BC...I want to spend my time off of school doing something interesting...working a job that actually gives me the feeling of accomplishment...something I can put on my resumee that's not "waitress" or "photo lab associate". I kind of want to be a secretary...I doubt I'd be qualified for that kind of job because I haven't taken any type of course, but I think I would like working in an office environment. See if it suits me for the rest of my life. Plus, I want to have a job that would guarantee a specific number of hours and a specific paycheck each week. I want to go to Europe SOOO badly this summer...I can not wait!!
Alrighty-roo! I think I'm gonna get going because as I was writing about my secretary dreams all I was thinking of was Europe and now I'm REALLY excited!!! I'm gonna go look at some fun websites! I'll write more later ;)
~Melis

Everything's Coming up Melissa!

So, everything is going according to plan. Melissa is back to her happy go lucky self (not to be confused with the Happy Go Lucky Toy Factory!!) and I go home for Christmas in 2 days!! Can you imagine in 2 days I will be back in the ol' NS for the holidays! Of course, I have some days that I miss him, and I think about him...I think its natural that I would, but I'm getting over it. As I've already mentioned, I can't let it be the focus of my life...and truth be told the only time I really mention it is on this silly little blog! I'm actually pretty busy...I'm doing exams right now, just finished up my crazy essay writting period, I'm still working, I'm trying to get my Christmas shopping finished, AND I can't miss my reality TV shows :) So, all in all....Everything's coming up Melissa....I'm happy. And really...how can I lose...Jen has a personal ad for me on her Blog haha :) (....ummm....not that I'm pushing for responses....but.......http://jdradcliffe.blogspot.com)

So, the big plans for when I go home!! Well, I have a standing engagement to do a lot of Christmas Baking with Anthony, my oh so sweet nephew, Go out with Josh on Saturday, Do lots of shopping with Annajean and Janice, my sisters, and watch lots of movies and eat fruit with Jen, and I have to do crazy things with Shauna. We have a 'but each other really tacky, corny, present' thing going on right now. My idea is SO kick ass...I can't wait to give it to her. Now, I would mention it right now, but I really don't want her to read this and then know what I'm getting her.

But really, its not like tons of people read this Blog...which is really why I feel so comfortable writing so many stupid things on here. And to be perfectly honest...I want to be a writer...I guess I have to get used to people reading my thoughts. I actually want to increase the traffic to this do-hickey...so I've devised a plan that I'll soon be putting into action. 1.) I signed up for that ad thingy from google...and I know you probably hate clicking on ads...I know i do...but please click...I would very much like to turn this into a popular yet profitable venture, and 2.) I have GOT to get a more exciting life!! Now, I've got the ad thingy down...and I'm working on the aquisition of an exciting life ;)

A Lifestyle Change

Ok so I've been doing a lot of thinking recently. The first thing I had to deal with was the removal of a certain someone from my life. That was hard...mostly because I really liked talking to him, I liked joking with him, I liked him. But I think that I kind of let him take over too much. I don't know how or why I do it...but it just seems like I always let him dictate everything, andI know he never did it to be mean and he probably didn't even notice that he did it...But i think I need to be with someone who is going to accept me and love me for everything about me. Not just the things he likes, and the things he feels he can change, and disregard the rest. I've been feelings like 'Never is a Promise' bu Fiona Apple should be my theme song; its about hiding certain things about yourself from someone because they will never understand or accept them.

You'll never live the life that I live I'll never live the life
that wakes me in the night You'll never hear the message I give You'll say it
looks as though I might give up this fight But as the scenery grows, I see in
different lights The shades and shadows undulate in my perception My feelings
swell and stretch, I see from greater heights I realize what I am now too smart
to mention - to you You'll say you understand, you'll never understand I'll say
I'll never wake up knowing how or why I don't know what to believe in, you don't
know who I am You'll say I need appeasing when I start to cry But never is a
promise and I'll never need a lie

Aside from missing his presence in my life, I've really been ok. I cried that night, a lot (!!!), but since I've been ok. I think I've sortof been waiting for this for awhile, so I dealt with it a couple months ago. The next realtionship that Melissa O'Neil gets into will be a good one. It will be with someone who has the same thoughts about relationships as I have, someone who is open to the fact that its ok if I don't like all the same things as him, someone who accepts my differences and doesn't try to force change upon me. But I'm definatly going into my next relationship with my eyes open...I'm definatly a little bit more jaded and cynical. But hey, everyday I'm learning about the type of person I want to be with...I know who I am, and I want to be with someone who knows me too.

Heartbreak

It seems as though everytime I get involved with you, I get my heart trampled on. And, to be perfectly honest, I don't know how to stop the hurt. And its so final now, because this is it. You can ask me how I know its over and how do I know that I won't want to be friends later on...oh...I know. I've always watched movies and felt a little bad for the geeky person who just doesn't get that their love isn't mutual, but whenever you come into the picture I turn into that person. The only way I can protect myself from that is to keep you out of my life completely. I know you do love me...but I also know that you won't live with it. And in your rejection of that love, you are rejecting me from your life. I can't be your friend...I can be friends with my other ex's because they are not you. No one is you, and essentially that is my problem. Unfortunally, its always been you. And someday in the not so far future, I think you will miss me again...and you will want to call me again...but don't. This is your decision. You made it before and I forgave you...I didn't want to, but you were persistent and you made me...but this time, don't call me. You know I would have waited for you. I was willing to wait, to be friends, in hopes of the day things would work out, but this is your decision and you have chosen to dismiss that. For the record, I think this is a huge mistake....this time there is no take-backs....You've chosen. And I'll respect your choice...I just hope you can live with it later. For the last time, I love you...I always have...and I'll miss you too. I really do wish you happiness and success. I know you will succeed. I don't know if you'll think to look on here...I kinda hope you don't...because this is more so for me...well...maybe a little for you too. So...just keep breathing...

Jen did it...Me Too! Me Too!!

What song...

1. Reminds you of an ex-lover: 'Body Rock' by Moby

2. Reminds you of an ex-friend: 'Baby I got your money' O.D.B

3. Reminds you of your childhood: 'My Boyfriends Back', anything by Tiffany, and like Jen Billy Ray Cyrus...man...those flowing locks...

4. Makes you cry: 'If you get there before I do' Colin Raye, 'Tough Little Boys' Gary Allen

5. Makes you laugh: hmmmm....a funny song..."Kill me Now" Adam Sandler

7. Reminds you of the one you love/like: Well...different people "By my Side" Ben Harper, 'Fight for your right to Party' Beastie Boys...ugh

8. Makes you sleepy: The opening credits song from 'The Emperor's New Groove'

9. You wish you wrote: 'You don't see me' Josie and the Pussycats soundtrack

10. You wish had been written for you:Wish was written for me? hmmmm...'Your Body Is A Wonderland' John Mayer

11. Fills you with complete joy: "My favourite Underwear" Liz Phair

12. You never want to hear again: can't choose...won't choose

13. You want to get married to:Pachabel’s Canon in D if I have a traditonal wedding...'Call and Answer' if I have a free, outside in the sun marriage.

14. You want played at your funeral:I know its silly...but 'With you in your Dreams' by Hanson..."If I'm gone when you wake up, please don't cry.And if I'm gone when you wake up,Please don't sigh...Don't look back at this timeAs a time of heartbreak and distress.Remember me, remember me.'Cause I'll be with you in your dreams."

15. Makes you want to mosh/slam dance: hahaha....Irish Jigs

16. Sums up your teenage years: 'I'm sensitive' Jewel

17. Song that reminds you of high school friends: Bootylicious 'Destiny's Child'

18. You like to wake up to: 'Kiss Me' Sixpence none the richer

19. You like out of your parent's record collection: my dad's 'Steppenwolf' and my Mom's 'American Graffiti' soundtrack

20. Your parents like out of your collection: Mom-Black Eyed Peas, Dad-Sister Hazel

21. You love that you wouldn't know about if it wasn't for a friend:Hole from Jen

22. Makes you think of someone who died: 'One Fine Day' Mariah Carey and Boyz 2 Men

23. You love the video more than the tune: 'All I wanna do is Love ya'

24. Reminds you of your first love:Probably wasn't my first love....but "Brick" by Ben Folds Five

25. You love which is from one of your favorite movies: "I Wanna Grow Old with You” Adam Sandler and Moulin Rouge <------- Jen's Answer...but ME TOO!

26. Makes you think of the moon: 'Blue Moon' Toby Keith ;)

27. Makes you think of sex: 'I'm a Slave for you' Brittany

28. Makes you think of being alone: "Why" Avril Lavigne

29. You love to hear at clubs: I'm a Black Eyed Peas gal myself

30. Makes you think deeply: "Hold Me Now" Jennifer Knapp

31. Makes you wonder why it was ever written:Just one…my god how to narrow it down? I’ll say “How Bizarre” OMC <----Jen's answer...AMEN!

32: Favorite song during the rain: "Pina Coladas” Jimmy Buffet <---- once again...Jen

33: Fave driving song: 'Three Small Words' Josie

34: Song that makes you smile for no reason: "Chattahoochie" by Alan JAckson...my neighbour used to sing it REALLY loud

35: Song that reminds you of summer: Man...I can't choose that...I mean...I've had 21 summers...

62-100 Things you Didn't know about me :)

More Things You Didn't Know :)

Once again...no particular order

1. I'm a big Elvis Fan.
2. My first and second dogs names were Scrappy....Scrappy 1 and 2 :)
3. My favourite meal is a Turkey Dinner
4. Favourite Ice Cream Flavour is Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough
5. I'm a Chocolate fanatic
6. I don't want to join the real world after graduation.
7. Pierre Elliot Trudeau is my hero
8. I'm insane and look for patterns in everything...like if I read a billboard I'll count all the letters and see what kind of patterns they make.
9. I love "Rain Man"
10. I think Nicole Kidman can do a hell of a lot better than Tom Cruise
11. I cry a lot....
12. ....I cry because I'm emotional...hardly ever because someone said or did something
13. My sister jumped on my head when I was little...we were playing "Jump Over Melissa"
14. I'm pretty sure I think I'm cooler than I am.
15. I think Stewie is the funniest character in cartoon history.
16. I love sailor moon.
17. I can't eat too many marshmellows....you know why Ms. Krista Leck ;)
18. I judge a book by its cover.
19. My cousin Lisa sat on me by mistake when I was an infant.
20. Until this summer I thought Santa Claus came at the end of EVERY parade...not just the Santa Claus parade.
21. Until 2nd year University I didn't know who Margaret Thatcher was.
22. Until 2nd year University I didn't know that it was Santa Claus and not Santa ClausE...I didn't get that because the movie was about the santa clause they named it that...hence the E
23. My favourite spot on the couch is the right hand corner
24. I like colored socks with funky designs
25. I can't get enough of those chocolate hedgehog truffles from Purdy's
26. I'm a craptacular guitarist....but I like to play anyway :)
27. My favourite Christmas Album is Kenny And Dolly....close second is the one Mark Thompson made me in first year, because it was just so nice!
28. I LOVE to dance!!
29. I have never seen a James Bond movie.
30. I get scared REALLY easy
31. I still think that sometimes there may be something under my bed.
32. Whenever I enter the bathroom in the night (i.e.- after 3pm) I have to open the shower curtain to be positive that there isn't a burgualr in there hiding.
33. I get a weird, proud feeling when someone laughs at my Jokes.
34. The best sound in the world is my Nephew's voice
35. I do everything at the last minute...I can't write papers or presentation ahead of time.
36. I used to think Darn was a swear word...I always said Rats!
37. I always thought my Dad was the best dad because when we (my sisters and I) was really little he would say tongue twisters when he was cutting our nails
38. I hate it when people misuse "who/whom" "either/neither" "which/that" and "I/me" (a lot of people don't realise...but it is correct to say 'someone and me' at times)
39. My mom is actually kinda cool in that geeky, mom type of way. (That's 100 y'all!!)

....continues??....

61 Things you Didn't Know About Mel!

A.K.A~ My Word!! This Girl is a FREAK!!

No Particular Order

I know I know....61?! what kind of number is that?!?

1. I'm stupid...I did this last night and accidently erased it...it was really funny and informative too!!
2. I LOVE the music from 'Josie and the Pussycats':the movie
3. I'm horrible with secrets...they eat away at me...but I love hearing them!
4. Toilet Bowl humor is my favourite kind of Humor
5. I think I'm the funniest person I know
6. I HATE waitressing!
7. I liked my job at Walmart.
8. I love movies...I could watch 50 of them and still want to watch more!
9. I love Shakespeare...not because he's "literature", but because I love the multi-factes of his writing.
10. I have met one person who is my exact mental double...we think the same, laugh at the same thing, talk the same, like the same things...its actually kinda freaky...
11. ...It's Shauna.....(not Shawna, for y'all who thought it was........)
12. I actually like country music...not twangy stuff...but new country.
13. I got caught up in the George Canyon Craziness...I acted like I didn't care...but I did...I was really excited....
14. ....I actually wanted to reprint people's pictures to keep for myself and my mom :)
15. I know all the words to 'Scotty doesn't Know'...I think Its such a funny song!
16. I made a Spice Girls CD in the past 5 months
17. Most of the time I have NO CLUE what I'm talking about...I just make it up as I go along
18. When I was a kid I used to pretend my mirror was a video camera and I'd make music videos in my room alone...complete with costumes and make-up.
19. I LOOOOOVE to sing...and I sing well....but no one in BC knows, so I don't.
20. I'm homesick a lot.
21. Anthony (My Nephew) and I are saving up to go on safari.
22. I'm addicted to Reality TV shows.
23. Tamara is my confidant...I tell her everything I'm afraid to tell anyone else.
24. I love to write...my ideal job is just writing all day, every day...
25. I started a novel...I really like it so far...but I'm too shy to tell very many people or let ANYONE read it.
26. I get nervous a lot....people don't think I'm shy but I really am...I get nervous around new people.
27. As I'm getting older I see a lot of my mom in me, but more of my dad...and that makes me really happy.
28. Makes me happy not because I don't want to be like my mom....but because its different with my dad....I'm a daddy's girl.
29. When I 'grow up', I would LOVE to live in New Glasgow...but I probably won't.
30. I get really annoyed when people interrupt me when I'm reading
31. I love reading more than TV/Movies...and that's something (see #8)
32. I have NO trouble remembering names and faces
33. I love being with my sisters.
34. I think I'll be descibed as cute for the rest of my life....for once I'd like to be refered to as hot...just because it will be something other than cute.
35. I love cartoons...kid and adult cartoons :)
36. I have an addictive personality
37. Phoebe is my favourite "Friend"
38. Jen is the person I feel the closest with...I think its cause we've been through a lot of the same stuff...she's got my back...and I've got hers.
39. I sometimes feel cut off from my NS life....like I dont' really belong anymore
40. I'm really self-conscious about my looks...I would love to change them...but I never will
41. I miss my boys back home.
42. I don't eat red meat or pork...although I do have pepperonii on my pizza sometimes...cause you know...its not REALLY meat....
43. I liked working at McDonalds in High School.
44. When I was 5, I had a crush on my cousin....then my sister told him :(
45. My favourite time of the year is Christmas...I love the lights and music and feelings...although I hate the commercialism!
46. I'm a Christian....United to be exact.
47. I keep a pile of notecards by my bed with my favourite quotes on them.
48. I write in practically every book I read...when I read somethign I like I have to underline it...preferably in pen...I HATE pencil in books.
49. Every guy I meet I compare to 'that one'...which probably isn't a good thing...
50. My favourite colors are pink, purple and white...and yes i know..white is a shade.
51. I love white towels and sheets
52. I always fold my towel three times, length-wise, before hanging it up
53. I hate leaving the house without making my bed.
54. I'm a germ-a-phobe.
55. I have a really sensitive nose and I hate smelly-ness.
56. I wear Body Shop 'White Musk' perfume oil
57. I only use vanilla candles in my room.
58. I'm a packrat.
59. I have had a cold for about 2 months now.
60. I have songs for every occasion...some are good...some are bad....but they all mean something to me, so if I every tell you about one...you know your in with me ;)
61. My roommate, Angie, and I think of crazy things to do to our other roommie, Krista...it all started with hiding in her bed...and moved to hiding in the closet for hours until she was SURE we weren't at home...them jumping out :D

...to be contined....

Oh Jen!!

Wow...A request for an update! I usually try not to appease my adoring public, because it just makes them cocky....But for Jen and/or a Family Guy Quote I'll give the world!! Well...lets be honest here...I won't get my butt to the computer to write for an OBVIOUS Family Guy Quote...But I will for a random one...Honestly J-Dawg....How do you remember that Quote...gosh its funny!!

Nothing really new is going on here...Papers, papers, papers and presentations!! That's IT! Actually, I saw an attractive guy on the bus today...And I must say...I was feeling good today too...My hair is back to brown, it was perfectly straight and I was wearing new earrings...I was feelin like a Goddess (ummm...kinda). But really, in that situation, what do you do?!? Pull a Fresh Prince and say "Hey...I noticed you noticing me, and I just wanted you to notice that I'm noticing you back"??? No...Its not do-able....AND if I remember correctly, it didn't work out too well for Will Smith!! I bet if she knew what she knows now, she would not have turned him down..........Of course that may have been the writers idea.....

Do you think we have any idea what is in store for us in the future? I was watching Footloose today with my roommate, Krista, and as I'm sure y'all know...Sarah Jessica Parker (poor gal...Has three first names!) has a small-ish role in it. Do you think she had any idea that she would become Carrie?! Do you think she sort of expected her success, or during the filming of Footloose she was thinking 'If things don't pick up after this, I have to get a real job'?? It's that question that makes me wary of making any type of plan or having any kind of expectations! Because, who knows. I was thinking I will graduate in October (On my Birthday!!) and then travel for a couple months...You know, tell people I'm 'finding myself', while I'm really just slacking off...But then I'm scared that if I do that I may miss the most important moment of my life. Its my belief that if you watch for the signs, you'll be fine and you'll find your path....But what if I missed one? What if I'm on the wrong path? What then?? Well...I guess I can't worry too much...I am going to graduate with an English Major...And you know...They're waiting tables across the country! ;)

~Mel

hmmm

While I'm sitting here, trying to decide what to write, it hits me...It's somewhat pretentious for me to think that anyone will find the everyday happenings of my life interesting. I'm a 22 year old University student with hardly a life to mention. I'm an English major who enjoys tearing apart books, movies, songs...really anything I can look into and attempt to find a deeper meaning. Who does that make me really? Well...I think it makes me someone really annoying, who tries to assert her intelligence by desperately finding what other people may or may not see. And really...What else is there about me?

Well...I know I'm nice, and a great friend...But I guess anyone can really say that. Even if someone was a bitch, I bet deep down they think they're nice to other people, and everyone has to be a great friend to someone. It's a humbling experience to think that perhaps, I'm not any different from anyone else. I have convictions, moral beliefs, and values....But so does everyone else...Everyone has to believe in something. What makes me think that anyone would be interested in my personal values?

In a way, this is like life pornography. We all sit at home, work or school staring at the computer screen looking into someone's life. It somehow creates a fantasy...We only get to see certain aspects of their life, and undoubtedly we will probably find something about the person we like or would like to see in ourselves. You don't get to see any of my really annoying habits; you don't see my obsession with folding my sheets and towels a certain way...Or how the kitchen sink fills me with dread because all I can imagine is all the bacteria that MUST be there....Or my addiction to cheesy reality TV shows (which we all must have...Even this is a Reality Show...We like being voyeurs into other people's lives....It tells us that we're not as bad as we thought!). You only get to see what I put forth about me....and trust me...You're missing all the good
stuff!! ;)

~Mella

oh yeah...by the way...I can upload pictures!! my Hello thing doesn't work!!! Help?

2:45 Friday Night

I'll tell you what I'm not doing on a Friday night....I'm not sitting in front of the computer, in my clock pajamas, writing a paper, listening to crappy music....yeah....that's for damn sure....ahem.....